Thursday, April 14, 2011

I admit I am under the influence....

For the past 4 years I have fasted on Thursdays during lent.  This is, perhaps, the first year that I have totally ENJOYED it.  This year is somehow different.... I ENJOY the discomfort. I ENJOY the struggle. In part because I am more cognizant of the pain that Jesus bore on the cross.  Being hungry for a day in no way compares to the pain the He went through. This year, each time I feel a hunger pang, I knock on something. It reminds me to pray and be thankful for what He did for us. Our sins are forgiven! Unbelievable....He can wash away the stuff that I HAVE done?? Yes!
I drink only water and green tea.......and a glass of wine in the evening for communion. Yes, it's a very large glass of wine! (I am far from perfect!!) But somehow, on my empty stomach, with my large glass of wine, and meditation, everything is put into perspective. I feel nothing but love...such a meager word for how I feel...everything is more focused and energized toward living fully and loving completely. So much so, that I may continue my fasting ritual after Easter......if it makes me feel this good for 40 days, I can only imagine where I'll be by this time next year. Please know that you are loved.

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